There will come a time wherein every one of us will face obstacles- young or old, complicated or simple. This should not surprise us since it is inevitable. Once we have surmount these, we would want to forget and start anew. I always thought that after I overcome these obstacles, I would naturally start fresh with ease. I start my never-ending new beginnings and face new challenges. But not all is easy to prevail.
There was a moment in my life where I had to abandon most of the important things in my life; the malls, the delicious filipino dishes, my school, my friends, and my mom. Back in 2009, my brother and I had to migrate with our dad to USA. It is not easy living with just one parent and not even knowing the cause of your parents' separation. I knew I had to forget to be able to start a new beginning. It was hard knowing that they have a different culture and we would have to adapt to it so that we would fit in. I remember crying and complaining when I got home from school one day because break is only 15 minutes and I got lost in the campus trying to look for the comfort room. After a year of adjusting, my dad finally agreed to let us go back home since we were not happy with the way things were back then. I thought things would go back the way they used to when we got back, but that was the day I realized that not everything you want will go the you way you expect it to. My brother and I had to repeat the grade we left off. We felt miserable, pathetic, discouraged, all the sad things a person can feel. I dreaded my first day of school with my new batch mates because I was scared of many things; what everyone would think of me and the possibility of my old friends judging me. Luckily, everything turned out great. My new batch mates accepted and respected me considering that I am the eldest in the batch although that did not stop them from becoming closer to me, like sisters I have always wished for but never had. They do not treat me like an older sister and that is perfectly fine for as long as I know they are not friends with me for the wrong reasons. I have only been with this batch for 6 years, but it feels like a lifetime.
Year 2010, the year I went through my real new beginning. My new beginning, new book, new chapter, is repeating 5th grade and becoming a part of this batch which I may also call my family. I learned to love what I could not at first. It does not really matter how much new beginnings you have went through, but what matters is that you value what you experience from it. New beginnings are not forgetting the past, it is simply moving on and learning from what you have gone through.
Taong Nyebe_N41
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