Unfolding A New Phase In Life

“New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings –Lao Tzu”. Truth be told, some people don’t like new beginnings. Fear of the unknown, as we say. They are scared of losing something that they’ve been used to seeing or doing; and I myself think that I’m part of these kind of people.

The quote somehow summarizes what happened 4 years ago when my parents wanted me to transfer to another school. I was so attached to my previous school because it is where I spent 9 years of studying and almost all of my friends are there. That school was a big part of my childhood that it was so hard for me to let go. Knowing my parents had plans of transferring me, I felt so sad and scared. I was sad because I wouldn’t be going to school with my friends anymore, it was just so hard to think that they’d all still be going to the same school without me, and knowing this; I got jealous and can’t help but feel out of place in my new school. I was scared because I’m anxious as to what my new school would be and what kind of people I would meet. St. Paul College Pasig (SPCP) is really big compared to my previous school; the school environment is one big factor. My previous school, Taytay United Methodist Christian School (TUMCS) is a just a small school in Taytay, Rizal. It is like a small community wherein each level would only have about 3 sections as compared to SPCP; The latter has 8-9 classrooms per grade level. Just thinking about this school set-up, was overwhelming and it really scared me.

I still remember that painful feeling I had during my Grade School Graduation day in TUMCS. I thought I’m going to lose my friends already and that I wouldn’t be able to perform well in academics because I’d be too uncomfortable with the new environment. The moment wherein you have to let go of something that’s been a part of you since you started learning your ABCs and 123s. But then, thoughts suddenly came clear. Painful feelings became feelings of excitement. What seemed to be a painful ending became a start of a new chapter of my life- a new beginning. My first year in St. Paul got me new friends, new environment, and new memories. It felt like looking at a video tape of my school life; the feeling is no longer unfamiliar. I felt so relieved having not to think of the unpleasant memories before. As if I was given a second chance to actually do better than my previous school years. When I was experiencing this so-called “new beginning”; it wasn’t that easy at first because apparently I would have to adjust and be comfortable to my new environment. Over the process, I was able to make new friends which I consider a big part of my new beginning. It was really nice to think that you’d be making new and fun memories with these people and that they’d actually help you to become a better person. It has affected me in ways that it has encouraged me to become a better version of myself.




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