FEAR

Ever since I was little , I always live my life in fear. I regret everyday not doing the things I can do but not doing it because of fear. Fear always overcomes me, it's as  if I'm living in this tight box that i can't get out. Living in fear is like living a life of regrets and not experiencing anything new because of the barriers that you can't hurdle.

I remember this particular point in my life when I had experienced fear in cheerleading. Am certain I can do the stunts but wouldn't  because of fear, my back hand. I would always get disappointed with myself for not overcoming my fear and disappointing the people who believed in me as well. People constantly give me advice and no matter what they say or how many times they say it, my fear  always prevailed. My fear haunts me like a ghost. I regret not doing my backhand when I needed to, because it didn't help me improve my sport and it didn't make me feel good about myself, for the only person who could help me, was myself, because it's all up to me, it's up to me if want to do it or not-  if I want to over come my fear or not. And the stunts always makes me reflect a lot about  my sports if I'm really fit for cheerleading because one of the requirements for cheerleading is being "fearless" also, one of the  expectations in this sports includes extreme stunts and you can't do that if fear always get in the way, and I want  it badly to overcome my fear because cheerleading isn't just a sports to me, it's my passion and  it's my life because I've been doing it since grade four and I sacrificed so much for this sports.

 After 2 years of constant fear for the stunt I was able to overcome it by accepting the stunts and believing in myself. I remember one unforgettable experience when I first got to do it in the gym when I stopped over thinking about the stunt and stopped being frustrated with myself. Despite the challenge,  I surpassed and  after I have done the stunts I realized that it wasn't that hard after all, it was just all in my head. And after doing it once, I was able to do it  repeatedly  with out fear.  I realized how am I supposed to do this if me, myself can't even believe it.

Fear is all up to you I realized that, it's all in your head and you can control it for sure. "Sometimes an experience we dreaded, we discover that it was not nearly as fearful as we expected it to be"
"Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death" this line I believe is what I have proved when I persevered and overcome one of my greatest fear that might have made me miss the chance of enjoying my back hand.


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